Puzzling thoughts
eyes almost closing now.
had a long day but very memorable one.
but i had to be "consistent" so m here putting up my weekly post.
Hee.
this whole week had been blessed in many areas!
first was a mobile hp from sandy.
it was very unexpected.
i still have sentiments with my old one though....
one that has gone through "thick and thin" with me since i first got a hp.
hm, tt's about more than 4yrs now.
it was a hp that carries more than just calls and message.
it bridges many relationships with the people i know.
the communication that brings joy and also pain....=)
Hope this "new change" will refresh the joys more than pain...hee.
Yes, another change for this year!
Sandy: many thks! really. i was not "prepared" to accept and in fact after taking it, i went back home and "didnt" feel good about receiving it....its not just abt paisey...:) Somehow deep in my heart i cldnot figure out why the "not good" feelings come about. But i thank God, you shared with me on thurs nite about what you also learnt in giving the hp to me.
And whats even unexpected was poy actually offered to bless me ( or rather my family) with his unused monitor.
Poy: Lots thks to you too! u always so giving, that i also had the "not good" feeling about accepting it.
Not just that, on last sun, i recd a nian gao from siew qin which she wanted to give to my parents.
Then my "gege" -zhihao gave me a book to read....
And also Ps lawrence gave all the careleaders a gift of magnetic stand.
i am very touched by the thoughts already! Indeed, i felt so blessed.
Yet deep down, there's this thing keep "bothering" me, the not good feeling abt accepting.
then it came to me....
revealing the puzzling thoughts.
It's all about God's grace.
i felt not good about accepting the gifts because i felt i dont deserve it.
all along, the logical mind says: recd from what you work for.
it seems illogical to recd something just like tt.
freely given?
hard to accept.
But God reminded me once again.
His grace is like tt.
We dont deserve His forgiveness, no matter how much we worked hard to "redeem" ourselves,
we can never earn enough.
God's grace is given freely. His hand is stretched out to us already. It only requires faith in Him to take hold of Him. No matter how much we try to analyse Him, we can know Him only to the human extent, yet when coupled with faith in Him, we can see far better and know Him personally and experienceing His presence.
Grace is never understood by mere intellect searching nor knowledge.
It is a gift from God.
it is hard to accept His grace coz we are always influenced by thoughts that says we need to do something to earn his grace, or to have certain extent knowledge.
i am no exception. i think likewise sometimes.
But i thank God, tt He reveals to me now.
through the gifts i recd from sandy, poy, siew qin, Ps law, zhihao..etc.
i understood His grace better.
i understood why i had all those "not good" feelings.
His grace bless and we will gladly recd.
It is more blessed to give than to received.
To give is to be like Jesus, He gave His life.
To receive is to taste God' grace, He gave though we dont deserved it.
God indeed provides all the needs in my life. All by His grace.
Today - Sat, 5/2/05
We went trek walk today. Cryst, Guangwei, Bernard, Jingyu, Ian, Mus, Jane.
started walking about near 10am....
had fun just enjoy the nature, monkeys, trees....and talking with them.
along the path, actually saw a miniature "waterfall" heehaa, very mini. all of us just laughed at the size of it. :) But a good discovery of bt Timah.
Got t know a new fren today, mus. A fun and easy-going guy.
remembered there was at a junction. Guangwei asked us which route we opt for.
One we saw was a steeply built-in steps up to the summit. Another a relatively smooth going pathway.
We choose the "deceptive" smooth going pathway.
Oh no! A wrong decision.
along the path, we had even to use all our 4limbs to get up.
And it is really tiring.
at the end of it, we finally reached the summit!
but this time round, it was a more satisfying "conquer" coz after so mcuh HARD WALK.
As we settled down at the foot, we just talked and talked. Laughing about our experience at work. about knowing one another...etc. Loved the time out from our work to be near the nature.
i remembering sharing that the first few months of my job, i had memorable experience with a debtor in my Company. calling him was so stressful, he even scolded me over phone unitl i do not know how to handle but just cried. So silly memories. Yet these are good lessons to learn and builds up my personal growth.
Though times at work can be tough but really appreciate the learning process.
then after that, we went exploring....
saw the quarry....so nice!!!
hm, too bad no one brought a camera. :(
then we discovered a interesting area where there's miniature hanging bridge, netted path, tripod-like structure....
hm, first time saw these at bt Timah.
There's more than just a hill.
hope to go there again...
so those who miss this trip, look forward ya for the upcoming one, ok?! ;p
went dinner at "outsider cafe" where june's working.
Had good time with cryst, vincent, kim, sandy, paulin.....
and our ah june, so cute. Serving us knife and fork for our spagetti.....hee!!!
Strolling down the road nearer tanglin mall....at orchard.
The night is windy. feww people walking.
just simply wonderful to have this slow walk.
then they went for KTV. i was so very tired, decided to walk to doby ghaut mrt.....
as i walked alone in the midst of crowds of shoppers along orchard road and somerset....
a song came to my mind......
You laid aside Your majesty
Gave up everything for me
suffered at the hands of those YOu have created
You took all my guilt and shame
When You died and rose again
Now today You reign, in heaven and earth exalted
i really want to worship You, my LOrd
You have won my heart and i m yours.
Forever and ever, i will love You.
You are the only one who died for me
gave your life to set me free.
so i life my voice to You
in adoration.
a song that tells God's love. Jesus' act of love. It touched my heart just now. to know that i am loved always. To know that Someone died for me.
may every song lifts up the souls of our lives to realize that there's love and hope from God.
had a long day but very memorable one.
but i had to be "consistent" so m here putting up my weekly post.
Hee.
this whole week had been blessed in many areas!
first was a mobile hp from sandy.
it was very unexpected.
i still have sentiments with my old one though....
one that has gone through "thick and thin" with me since i first got a hp.
hm, tt's about more than 4yrs now.
it was a hp that carries more than just calls and message.
it bridges many relationships with the people i know.
the communication that brings joy and also pain....=)
Hope this "new change" will refresh the joys more than pain...hee.
Yes, another change for this year!
Sandy: many thks! really. i was not "prepared" to accept and in fact after taking it, i went back home and "didnt" feel good about receiving it....its not just abt paisey...:) Somehow deep in my heart i cldnot figure out why the "not good" feelings come about. But i thank God, you shared with me on thurs nite about what you also learnt in giving the hp to me.
And whats even unexpected was poy actually offered to bless me ( or rather my family) with his unused monitor.
Poy: Lots thks to you too! u always so giving, that i also had the "not good" feeling about accepting it.
Not just that, on last sun, i recd a nian gao from siew qin which she wanted to give to my parents.
Then my "gege" -zhihao gave me a book to read....
And also Ps lawrence gave all the careleaders a gift of magnetic stand.
i am very touched by the thoughts already! Indeed, i felt so blessed.
Yet deep down, there's this thing keep "bothering" me, the not good feeling abt accepting.
then it came to me....
revealing the puzzling thoughts.
It's all about God's grace.
i felt not good about accepting the gifts because i felt i dont deserve it.
all along, the logical mind says: recd from what you work for.
it seems illogical to recd something just like tt.
freely given?
hard to accept.
But God reminded me once again.
His grace is like tt.
We dont deserve His forgiveness, no matter how much we worked hard to "redeem" ourselves,
we can never earn enough.
God's grace is given freely. His hand is stretched out to us already. It only requires faith in Him to take hold of Him. No matter how much we try to analyse Him, we can know Him only to the human extent, yet when coupled with faith in Him, we can see far better and know Him personally and experienceing His presence.
Grace is never understood by mere intellect searching nor knowledge.
It is a gift from God.
it is hard to accept His grace coz we are always influenced by thoughts that says we need to do something to earn his grace, or to have certain extent knowledge.
i am no exception. i think likewise sometimes.
But i thank God, tt He reveals to me now.
through the gifts i recd from sandy, poy, siew qin, Ps law, zhihao..etc.
i understood His grace better.
i understood why i had all those "not good" feelings.
His grace bless and we will gladly recd.
It is more blessed to give than to received.
To give is to be like Jesus, He gave His life.
To receive is to taste God' grace, He gave though we dont deserved it.
God indeed provides all the needs in my life. All by His grace.
Today - Sat, 5/2/05
We went trek walk today. Cryst, Guangwei, Bernard, Jingyu, Ian, Mus, Jane.
started walking about near 10am....
had fun just enjoy the nature, monkeys, trees....and talking with them.
along the path, actually saw a miniature "waterfall" heehaa, very mini. all of us just laughed at the size of it. :) But a good discovery of bt Timah.
Got t know a new fren today, mus. A fun and easy-going guy.
remembered there was at a junction. Guangwei asked us which route we opt for.
One we saw was a steeply built-in steps up to the summit. Another a relatively smooth going pathway.
We choose the "deceptive" smooth going pathway.
Oh no! A wrong decision.
along the path, we had even to use all our 4limbs to get up.
And it is really tiring.
at the end of it, we finally reached the summit!
but this time round, it was a more satisfying "conquer" coz after so mcuh HARD WALK.
As we settled down at the foot, we just talked and talked. Laughing about our experience at work. about knowing one another...etc. Loved the time out from our work to be near the nature.
i remembering sharing that the first few months of my job, i had memorable experience with a debtor in my Company. calling him was so stressful, he even scolded me over phone unitl i do not know how to handle but just cried. So silly memories. Yet these are good lessons to learn and builds up my personal growth.
Though times at work can be tough but really appreciate the learning process.
then after that, we went exploring....
saw the quarry....so nice!!!
hm, too bad no one brought a camera. :(
then we discovered a interesting area where there's miniature hanging bridge, netted path, tripod-like structure....
hm, first time saw these at bt Timah.
There's more than just a hill.
hope to go there again...
so those who miss this trip, look forward ya for the upcoming one, ok?! ;p
went dinner at "outsider cafe" where june's working.
Had good time with cryst, vincent, kim, sandy, paulin.....
and our ah june, so cute. Serving us knife and fork for our spagetti.....hee!!!
Strolling down the road nearer tanglin mall....at orchard.
The night is windy. feww people walking.
just simply wonderful to have this slow walk.
then they went for KTV. i was so very tired, decided to walk to doby ghaut mrt.....
as i walked alone in the midst of crowds of shoppers along orchard road and somerset....
a song came to my mind......
You laid aside Your majesty
Gave up everything for me
suffered at the hands of those YOu have created
You took all my guilt and shame
When You died and rose again
Now today You reign, in heaven and earth exalted
i really want to worship You, my LOrd
You have won my heart and i m yours.
Forever and ever, i will love You.
You are the only one who died for me
gave your life to set me free.
so i life my voice to You
in adoration.
a song that tells God's love. Jesus' act of love. It touched my heart just now. to know that i am loved always. To know that Someone died for me.
may every song lifts up the souls of our lives to realize that there's love and hope from God.
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