Rainbow

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Catching up....

2007 started...3 months now.
busy at NIE, yet those are my training and outreaching grounds....
how have i impacted them? how have i changed over the year....hmm. :P

was "shocked"when i recd the news that i will be teaching in Mee Toh for my practicum.
at least i was not "prepared"for tt.
i rem i had prayed to GOD : send me to the school that needs me....
nvr did i expect this school.
firstly, i guessed it was because it is a buddhist temple supported school. a school of over 53years now...a school which is giving higher mother tongue....wow....
now that i am in the school for 2weeks...( sick for 3days for an sudden "relapse"of swelling of my vocal chords...lost voice...") i am glad i am here.
one thing i give thanks to GOD, the pupils here are wonderfully made.
as little P2 and P3 which i am teaching, they have their innocence and childlikeness....things i know i would definitely learn from them much. tt's one big privilege of teachers, or rather whose working places is related to children. we just get younger each day....haha. :p

i begin to love these new faces...i try to rem their names...and tt's about a whole of 110 children loh...
LORD, give me Your love to love them. Give me eyes to see their potential. Give me discerning heart to know what are their needs....give me strength to cope each day with them. give me peace at times when i know i will get angry with them. give em joy to share with them, so that their learning school days will be joyful.
esp for those few that i came to know their background...LORD, Your will be done.amen!!
Mee toh, here's my 10weeks, LORD may YOu multiply these times to be an impactful one!

had my BD this year, was sick, yet thankful i manage to get up and joined them at vivo city , with GR and my first time with Joe....it was a big crowd.
i am thankful everyyear on my BD, there's this group of friends who will faithfully celebrate with me. LORD, bless our friendships....
and this year BD was extra special.
i did not expect it, yet i know GOD You are there with us.
we had dinner on sunday, the actual day.
i did not expect him to get me a present....he said it was in his bag...i took it out, intially thought it was a book, and i was literally "dumbfounded"when i saw it was a ring pillow. it has a written note on it...i dun know what to do.
guess it was my first ( and also the last) time i recd this kind of "present"...i dont rem i said anything...
how funny i thought, when he said grace and also praye dto GOD that i would be able to give him an answer after dinner....so we just eat and contd to eat...it was both akward and also at the same time, i was conversing with GOD deep in my heart....
am i ready for it? yes, i know and hope this courtship would end in marriage. Yet how "contradictory"was it in my heart when it came. i was not too sure...
i could only rem tt dinner time, my heart was crying out so loud: LORD...how? yes or no?...

we then walked to rachel's house to collect a book from her...then i thought if he would ask me again...then it may be better we talked through seriously about it....i dun wan a yes answer just for him only.cos i know my heart can be so easily ïnfluence"and saying yes when i myself may not be able to agree to it. i wan a yes answer for BOTH of us. ....

he stopped by the carpark....i wan to see his seriousnes...many times in the past, when we brought up this qtn, he seems not serious enough to convince me. he tried, i can see...
but is it now? i thought.
deep in my heart, i knew i need to be assured of stg...but at tt moment i just can seem to pinpoint what it is...
we walked...stopped again at the pavement by the roadside. he looked at me and asked me how i feel.....he said stgs to me...( haha...so touching that i just dun know how to put it here in the blog...:P) and it immediately cleared the öbstacle"within in my heart....he gave me two options: if i kissed him, it means a yes. if i dont, it means a no.
LORD, thank YOU for this wonderful BD gift that i ever recd.
This man right here with me. a wonderful gift which YOU prepared for me.
this man who taught me to live a life with YOU, simple heart and with faith.
this man i know i am called to serve him with all that i am, with all that i can.
this man whom i respect for his heart for You, this man i love because YOU first love us.
LORD, i pray for all those who desire a man in their lives,that YOU will bless them as much as, if not even more, abundantly as they seek YOUR will be done.

this is another milestone. i pray for this marriage to come, that we will walk even more closely with YOU. Thank You for YOur grace that YOU forgive all the mistakes we have made during this courtship, and i believe YOUR presence will be with us to guide us to be more and more aligned to YOUR WILL. amen. i pray for all those who will be in courtship next time, that YOU will bless them and our ears be ever so sensitive to YOU. use both of us that we cna help those in courtship next time, so that they will not need to make the same mistakes as us. thank YOU Lord.

Yest was our Sub District gathering.
( dennis, wilson, jason, andrew, adel, cc)
a bell. looks like a chime.
"cling! cling!"
there's a time for everything.
a time to harvest, a time to reap.
a time to step out, a time to be still.
a time to speak, a tiem to be listening.
be ready for HIS time.
catch His time.
how to know? listen to the "cling! cling!" be watchful.
the "cling ! cling!"sounds...the train comes...then its time to hop on. a time to move on.
be ready when it comes.
amen!!
LORD pray that our CG be enagaing the world for GOD by becomign a distinctive disciples who SHINES with CHrist's light.
S- Spirituality
H-Humble servanthood
I-INtegrate Christian living
N-Nations passion
E-Eternal perspective
i submit this vision to YOu, may YOur will be done as we walk with faith and faithfulness.
amen!