Heart Language

learnt some "heart language"!

had a good time learning some "heart" language yest nite.
not easy, but was challenging, and very heartwarming too.
i enjoyed it. ( though at times dun understand what was said to me)

"Heart" language gets to the heart.

what is your heart language?
i hope someday i can be used by Him so that Ye So can get into many hearts.
Some foreign hearts too.
and i hope as i get to capture your heart language, i would speak at the right part of your "hearts", not "poking" at the wrong ones so much that you will be hurt.
Ye So use me to speak His words to your hearts.

i want to rem these words for my good friend:
1) sen yat fa lok
2) Ye So oon lei
3) lei hai Shion Dai zui oon.

whahaa.

Thank You for blessing me to be able to write this blog, about "heart" language.

i took a step, i hope it pleases You.
it was not easy even when perhaps i was not being understood.
yet, i felt that peace within me.
i could only do what i can.
beyond me, i need Your strength.
let me know You "all over again"
to really know so that i may trust You
at the end of the day, i may not get what i wanted.
its ok, but You be with me.
and i know even at that time,
i would receive so much more joy
because it is ultimately Your best plan for me!
out of gratitude already for blessing me with what i can enjoy now.
i want to know Your "Heart" language too!
amen!

Dont Know What to Say.

1) hvnt been blogging for some time now...( though i still keep spontanteous journaling on my own book)...dont know what to say. Coz too many things to say. i think that there are many things to say, yet sometimes, it better to keep to self( to certain extent). one is not to "rehearse" those "not-so-good" thoughts by repeating it over and over again. and allow that box of "hidden thoughts" to be always put before Him to illuminate His voice and His direction etc....
(haha, as u read this, if u dont understand what i mean, its ok, just my thoughts at this point)

2) RJ been missing school for days. Ms lim told me he vomitted blood at home and was hospitalised at KK. Could not go together with Ms lim/ Sandra on fri after school, so i got the ward number and went alone to day.( Sat, 25th Feb). Ward 56,32. standing outside and peeped in before i went in. only saw a baby inside. hm...then after checking out with the nurses, he was transferred to Ward 55,32. saw him alone, eating his bland porridge...his mum was sleeping on the mattress on the floor on the other side of the bed. saw her tired face. it must have been hard on her. RJ was looking good. with a "needle" attached to his small hand, for his drips. his mum greeted me in english so i started to talk with her in english....then on and off, RJ also talked to me in english. dont know what to say lo, i thought i was his chinese teacher. funny.

his mum told me in details about his health condition, though i would not say i understood every term she told me, but i just to let her have a listening ear....it was not easy for her ba...

RJ is a quiet boy in class, yet he enjoys drawing. not very good in studies.
he was showing me all that he has been doing at the hospital.
he showed me many pieces of stickers. one consultant came and wanted to check on him, RJ refused so the consultant gave a sticker to coax him, and told him that if any other doc want to take blood sample etc...he can ask them for stickers. as trusting as a little kid, he did as told, he asked for stickers everytime another doctor wants to take injection from him...so innocent.

he drew many pictures during his free time. He showed me the pokemon pics he drew with his freehand, and he said it with much pride, i sensed it from his words.
his mum encouraged him to draw a pic for me. so RJ asked sweetly: what do u want me to draw? i will draw very nice.
was touched at his words.
of course i asked if his hand can take it, the strength to draw etc...
what a kid!
he drew as carefully and seriously as i can see from his face, and he even said he want to colour it....he also said he wanted to sign on it. haha...and he actually signed " illegible" words lo.

then i got to go for another appointment...
so his mum said: di2 di, ( as his mum calls RJ) give Jie2 jie a hug.
hm, at this point, i thought to myself, the mum must have forgotten i was his chinese teacher liao, otherwise she would not have addressed me as "jie jie". haha.
and another, i was in fact, taken aback, i dont know what to say. or rather how to react. just welcome the hug as i could, trying very hard not to feel "weird"...i nvr hug my kids before lo.
anyway, it was a very heartwarming hug.
really. though RJ is not my kid, i felt like a mother tt time. his hands stretched to hug my waist, his head leaning on me, i felt so touched!
i wish him Jesus.

God, would u extend this boy's life. even though his in born liver condition may have seemingly gotten worse, and i would not know how many years he has on this earth, God by Your grace and mercy, let him tasted your Love, Your wonders, Your miracles of healing. Protect him until he sees Jesus. thank You Jesus, amen!

i dont know what to say....

3) meet Kim, Ling Ling, Cathy, Dennis for movie.
kim and me went for "i not stupid 2"
the rest went for "pink panther"

i only manage to catch part of the good movie.
i left at the moment i knew i would also cry, where one of the boy's father was beating him up terribly cox he was expelled from school.

intersting qtn at the begining of the movie: ( in words as far as i can rem)
a) when is the last time i praise someone?
b) when is the last time i was being praised?

good point about this movie:
real, the situations are some "heart" words or actions people do now....
and also, it got me thinking about also this qtn:
do i judge fast and forgot to stop and ponder about the person's good points first?
( inspired from a scene when the boy repaired the laptop for the father, and brought it to the office for his dad, yet his dad first sentence was to "accuse" his son for playing with it and damaging it and repaired out of his guilty conscience)
would be good to catch the later part. :)

went to meet ps.
had a good talk with her.
dont know what to say.

God, show me Your way.
this is my heartfelt prayer, too many thoughts already now.

Thank You Jesus.
For Your Light is there.
in darkness.
i know You will hear my cries.
i know You will direct.
let it be fruitful time
to know YOur name
to know who You are
at the end
Your name be glorified.
amen!