Hokkaido Japan

8th to 14th Dec 2008 2nd honeymoon at Hokkaido, Japan
First time experiencing snowing.

Thought

Came in to write my blogs after reading some of the friends...
some blogs are really encouraging...

but i thought, blogs is still impersonal.
sometimes, one way interaction.

blogs can be "misused" too.

anyway,
life has its "exciting" things happening.
to me, a human, no escape.
some got me thinking.
some just got me feeling.
there is one incident particularly, got me to hear from God.
it was thinking, feeling ( a short one, lasted a day) and then thinking.

sat behind with 3.
6 in front.
my feel says stay with 3.
but He say: are you not going forward to lead the 6?
i qtn: but how? what about 3?
He replied: rem what I called you to?
i think, and replied: ok...

home: i feel, and i cried, together with him.thank God for him.

God, You have to be there, and i know You will.
if there is anything i can, pls let me know.
let there be no miscommnucation btw me and You.
Holy Spirit, lift those who needs You.
and i realised, how small is the strength of us,
thank God,
so that to realise how great is His strength!

A milestone- miracle

GOD,how often do i, mere human being, complicate our lives?
Even complicate our faith.
How often we allow circumstances, our physical eyes blocked our view of YOU?
countless times, isnt it?

during this 40days of fasting and praying,
there are a few specific personal prayers.

Today is special.
we saw again YOUR miracle.
Your Hand moving and by Your grace, letting us experience You.
we both teared, tears of joy.
how funny we both thought, GOD just did a miracle, yet we teared...
Coz how can it be done without YOU? It must be YOU.

GOD, indeed, it was not a easy journey.
Its easy to choose not to believe,or so we thought.
to believe is hard, coz we are seeing with our human eyes.

There were doubts.
questions.
anxiety.
fears.
worries.

yet one by one, we released to YOU.
we still believe in YOU.
YOu are a GOD who never fails.
YOU will do as YOU promise.
YOU will have the best plans for us.

This is such a miracle.
and we both know, its YOUR perfect timing.
THank YOU, faithful LORD.

Put into us a greater desire to serve YOU
Psuhing forward the kingdom
what a privilege to be YOUR children!
amen!

Southern Ridge_28thJune2008

Human Bowling - FUN!

Take a look at this, when CG had our fun times too!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VyXNPoCa8dI

Some more pictures of camp 2008

Actsperience GOD Adults Church camp 2008

Actsperience K.L
Task: Take a CG pic that reflects the camp theme verse Genesis 28:3
May GOD almighty bless you and make you fruitful and increase your numbers until you become a community of peoples.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s_nYq0JDBhU

Testimony of my colleague's conversion!

My colleague XY, converted on the 30th Dec 2007! :)

I known this colleague for about half a year now. But i have not really know her deeper. We both came into the same school Jul 2007. However she is in the morning session while i was in the afternoon. in fact i was closer to those in the afternoon session teachers....what we have in common probably we are both new to the school.

It was only moments of time here and there we exchanged our hi and byes...

on 27th Dec 07, we went back to school for AGM. Caught up with her then about how we spent the holidays...then i got to know she actually went to a christmas svc back in her hometown with her mum. (who is a believer) It was a brief moment as the meeting was about to start...i rem in that conversation she asked: Does your church allow people just walk in or they need to have a friend there? ....totally amazed at the sincere question, i replied: of course you can just walk into the church....

After the meeting, i was personally "burdened" by the amount of work i forsee in the school term. i walked back home talking to my Father: GOD, why u put me in this school huh?"
Then i was quickly being reminded of the conversation i had with XY, His still small voice impressed on my heart:" what if it is just for this one soul?"
Heart was being humbled and i responded:" ok ok, if it is for this one soul, i will stay...."
GOD truly is amazing and faithful.

i gave a msg to extend invitation to sun svc to XY and she immediately agreed. i could tell she was waiting for the invite...:P

Filled with a lot of excitement yet apprehension, firstly, i do not know her well. And i do not know how ready she is...etc etc...
I rem on sat and sun morning pre svc prayer, i keep praying for her conversion...
at the svc during the holy communion time, His voice came again....
" Why did you lose focus?...Dont focus on her conversion. WHat if you are part of the process of her journey...just sowing or watering only...Focus on ME."
my heart humbled (again):" ok, sorry...GOD. i let go. even if i am supposed to be just sowing on her, let it be...i will trust in You."

Heart released...i enjoyed the sermon by Ps Ben a lot...Following GOD's lead.
At the response time, i just waited...for HIS voice to tell me whether to ask XY or not...
Ps Ben asked for a response from pre believers...(not the subtle hands raised, but to stand up wor...)
i opened my eyes. and looked at XY, she was already standing up!! she saw me....we smiled....WOW!! PTL! i knew it had to be GOD! Thank you Lord.

(as i am writing now, i was again reminded one of my prayers few days ago. SQ told me can ask GOD for marriage gift...and in my heart then, i was telling Him, if only one gift, i ask for the gift of salvation of my family and pple ard me...but hor, truthfully, XY did not come across my mind tt time. :P and truthfully, i knew in my heart (since only one gift, as i thought) i felt a pinch in my heart that i was hoping that i "can ask" from GOD to give the house for both of us...still self-seeking tt time...whahahaa...)

GOD will lead you to where His grace can be found.
There must be a purpose of where He placed us.
GOD is faithful even when we are faithless.
When our heart is still, we can hear HIS still small voice.
Where your treasure is, there your heart will be.
The gift that truly brings joy is indeed the gift of salvation.

Thank LORD, for being in my life!
amen!

Thanksgiving!!

Christmas is not here yet, coming soon...
but with thanksgiving, it helps us, at least me, to remember GOD's goodness.and not taking GOD for granted....here's some of thanksgiving recently....

1) first of all, and one of the major event is that finally some work have started rolling....for next year 15th March. venue is confirmed, Christ of church ,Malaya. Some key people are helping...thank GOD for joe and mz. kim is doing what she is good at, creating invitation card, which we def can trust her on tt. Thank GOD for her. Jason who is so willing to do photograhy for us on tt day, which is another underexposed talent in him...Thank GOD for him. carol ang helping for decor...will be sight-enjoyable. (if there's such a word)How joo, best in singing, of course must chop him to lead the PnW...wow...rem at the wedding i went, his leading was anointed and ministering...:) thank GOD for cryst, so readily helping out for support singing. and cuifen for playing the keyboard. there will be more to come, but GOD def will bring the right people into the right place...

2) yea! going a short trip soon from 5th-14th Dec...after these couple of years...finally. praying for a confirmation from GOD through this trip. may my heart be humble and sensitive to HIM and hear His voice...

3) mum, da jie and er jie going to taiwan...thank GOD for this chance to really let my mum go out to see the world. always had this idea, never came through because we are so busy with work here. finally. though i cant go with them. nevertheless, thank GOD. also a good chance to learn be more independent, since the last time i move into hostel/ministry house...nah, just those few days...:)

4) thank GOD that i got a free digital camera and a mp3!! free because it went below the amt i was given as a kind of allowance for education officers! :P had hestitate for some time, wanted to get stg useful, guess these had to come.

5) THANK GOD, for the two months bonus! hvnt really got the money in yet, heard over the news....yea...

7) thank GOD for HIs amazing strength with me while i was working on Hope Sem assignment. thought i needed a lot of time, need complete before i leave for trip. and i have finished!! 17 long pgs...its a milestone to completing my certificate in Hope Sem! amen!

8) heard from colleagues...next year most likely i will be in afternoon session again...lower primary...which is GOOD...and maybe involved in a CCA which i like...hope it will come true...but even if not, THANK GOD whichever comes, i have the faith and assurance HE will walk together with me. mountain peak / valley deep, He will never forsake nor leave me.

9) at last corp prayer meet, Ps Jo was asking those who have comforted by GOD to comfort others...those who have faith, to stand and pray for others....i hesitate...thinking what have i got to give...think think...i just simply thought GOD has given me so much that, i can just pray for anything for others...when i chose to stand, it was out of faith i believe GOD cn use me....despite whatever i may/may not have gone through. i stood only to found out that maybe i misunerstood Ps Jo words...when i answered him: i stand, because i just wan to pray for others...people ard me laughed, some even i know..i dun know the reason why they laugh. did i say anything wrong? maybe there was a genuine reason to laugh. but at tt moment, i felt like a "fool"...felt more like i was laughed at. at the end of the day, i thank GOD, i prayed for a few people. which was my intention. i believe in the power of prayers, people need other to pray alongside with them. at the end of the day, i chose to believe in faith in action, then believe in the thoughts of outward expressions and expectations from people. amen! GOD, let me know if i am wrong. otherwse, train me to be better.

10) thank GOD for the holidays....to do work still but at a relaxed pace. Pray tt all work will be done in such excellent way that will glorify Your name! amen!

Lord, forgive me for again ignoring Your voice. help me to breakthrough this cycle. Sorry for breaking Your heart. break my heart too, so that my heart will be tender again. i wan to draw so much closer to You, to be with YOu, in You. Let more of Your spirit and word fill my being. Thank GOD, because it will be done not by human efforts, which can nvr be done. BUT it will be done through YOUR grace, as i put my faith in You. in Jesus name, amen!

When we try ...

What does it mean when someone says "i try"...

i will do it no matter how much i dont mean it.
i had enough, but because my mind still says to do the right thing, so i try.
there is nothing else i can do except just to try. (harder)

"ta han"?? maybe...

I try, because there is a good reason to contd on.
i try as i can see the rainbow after the rain.
i try this one more time, because i believe there is Truth.

Jia you?? maybe...

i personally think the comfort thing in the midst of trying...is to have SOMEONE beside you, to give you tt little nudge, tt little support behind, tt few words of encouragement, or even just a prayer...
What's more valuable is JESUS walking right there alongside, when we try.

May He gives grace to all who are willing to try. ( Not alone, but together with the Lord)

At the foot of the Cross

At the foot of the Cross (by Marcia, Unknown)

Fearing the battle was overAnd I'd already lost the war,I was tired of trying and failing.I just couldn't fight anymore.

So, dragging my battle-scarred body,I crawled to the foot of the cross.And I sobbed. 'Oh please, Father forgive me. But I tried...I tried.. and still lost.'

Then the air grew silent around me.I heard his voice just as clear as the dawn:'Oh, My child, though you are tired and weary,You can't stop, you have to go on.'

At the foot of the Cross , where I met Him,At the foot of the Cross, where He died,I felt love, as I knelt in His presence .I felt hope, as I looked in His eyes.

Then He gathered me lovingly to Him,As around us God's light clearly shone.And together we walked though my lifetimeTo heal every wound I had known.

I found bits of my dreams, long forgotten ,And pieces of my life on the floor.But I watched as He tenderly blessed them,And my life was worth living once more.

I knew then why I had been losing.I knew why I had not grown.At the foot of the Cross came the answer:I'd been fighting the battle alone .

At the foot of the Cross, where I met Him,At the foot of the Cross, where He died,Then I knew I could face any challengeTogether--just my Lord and I.