Excited...

a wait of more than 2years.
had been quite a small dream for me.
to be able to go Hope Church Thailand camp.
i had delayed for the past years coz of my responsiblities at home.

Thank You God.

Excited, excited excited.
would share more in coming days....
until i come back.

Excited! Haha! :)

Who else but You.

A song that was our song. Hope Song.

at the pre service prayer..
usually we would sing a worsip song to "still" our hearts before God...
but today, it was a much up beat song...

One world One Jesus!
.....................................
One Million churches for One Jesus.......

What powerful, visionary, BIG future....This is where we are going....as a Hope Family.
Mission. all nations. Go. People. His Love.
all these words came to my mind as we sang the song.

God,how many are they out there who had not heard of the wonderous love? the hope, the plans U had for them..

The vision that never fails to keep me look up. admist all the troubles, the stresses of life, the worries.....
..................................................

Went to church service at 11+am.
tears welled up even at the praise songs.
it was amazing, usually people are touched at the worship songs, the melancholic songs ....
so much, God.
i want yet i cant.
i dont want, yet i truly feel.
nothing else seems important than to have a Friend.
Who else but You.

it is in my heart.
no one else would know.
Only You.

This is my desire, to honor You
Thank You for holding me up.
You never let me go.
You are here.
I heard Your still small whisper.
i had to be still before You so that i can hear.
its not easy. Coz the surroundings are filled with so many different voices that can be distracting.
but i thank You i heard.
so clear.
the beautiful vision.
the hope, the future.

what more can i ask? except to be with my precious Lord.
who else but You.

Amazing Pick

Wed
13/04/05

Meeting Paulin and sandy for dinner
was early, so walked around bugis.
spotted a gift shop.
i thought: maybe i can get something for sandy

went in, walked around the shop, stopped somewhere near the counter.
saw the handphone accessory.
i thought: ok, i can get this one for her.

the handphone accessory was bundled together with lots of names, in rows.
i stretched forward, PICKED one from the many.
it says: "SANDY"
hm, i thought: not bad, it was my first pick and actually so 'accurate"

then i thought again: maybe i pick another one.
i stretched forward again, PICKED another.
it says: "DEBORAH"
(her baptism name)
wow! hm.....:)

so it was decided quickly that i'll get her the sandy.
went back to pick up the first one, and it was PICKED.

it was "divine" to me in that sense.
for someone who didnt like "shopping" around,
i was glad for it.

:) AN interesting day to note.

and while waiting for them at one of the benches near the fountain.
i was reading my bible.
an aunite came over from the back and actually poped her head over and ask: are u reading the bible?"
this question flowed over to a series of questions and strike a conversation with her then.
It was another interesting encounter.
after the conversation with her, it really strikes me the difference between a person who knows about God and who knows God personally.
God, who is there but far away beyond reach?
God, who is like a Father cares so much to show His Love.
May Your hand bless the auntie though i may not get to see her in the future.

So Proud of my Spiritual Family

Tues
12/4/05

Was early at Nexus Audi, Europe Room
saw 3 sis/bro at North america room, cutting and drawing etc...
didnt know them so jus smiled and walked down the dark isle and through the main entrance.

Waited and finally everyone came.
it was a good time where we prayed for God's blessings for this church at Europe Room.

When we ended at around 930pm,
i walked out into the main auditorium.
wow! so different....
a quiet and dark audi when i arrived.
BUT..
i asw a groups of people around th auditoirum.
a group of musicians.
a group of technical people handling the sound systems.
the group putting up the decorations.
etc....
this is my family.
i was touched by the sight of everyone coming together to do something for One Person.
the kind of unity i appreciated a lot.

its our Hope Church 14th birthday this coming sunday! :)
they came together to put in their time and resources so that as a family, we can enjoy the time together.
Also with our friends who can join us to celebrate the occasion with us.
that we may spread the spirit of joy to everyone around us in our lives.

though i was "born" into this family in 1999, about 5years now.
i grown to love Hope more and more.
the friends i have made, the bonds i have built, the family i m proud of.

God, lay Your hand on this church that we can always be humble to learn and grow in Your ways.
amen.

One LiFe ..(Part 2)

yes! i met Him!
so nice to meet Him as who He is and not what i think or "scratch" my brain cells to think who He is.
When i prepare and ready to meet Him, He wont disappoint me, that's Him. He is faithful.

At the pre-service prayer, He moves and prompted us to pray for ourselves to move into another level of faith! :)
Yes, i did. i prayed for myself to have more faith. the childlike faith to believe and to trust that all things are possible becoz He is who He is.

a lot of thoughts came even before i went church today.
had a late night sleep becoz of the 21st BD celebration at Coasta Sands Pasir Ris my bro had.
helpig him to pack up etc....
Somehow at the wee hours of 530am, my body just woke up.
i din not feel tiredness.
just a lot of thoughts and "burdens".

as i walked the familiar path towards mrt.
in my heart i know i had to let Him take over the burdens.
its weighing me down.
its pretty too much for me to "take" it.
i prayed....
in my heart, i "bowed" before Him. Becoz He is who He is.
i had the strong urge to "let go" of my true feelings before Him. the kind of "CRYING" to tell Him becoz i knw He can be trusted. He wont feel i am too insignificant to be noticed, He wont reject my pouring out....

On the mrt, i took His word and read.
(NLT) Mtt 11:28 Then Jesus said: Come to Me, all you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and i will give you rest...."
who else in the world would have known me to such extent except Him.
To many others, it may mean only words in a book.
To me, only when u get to know Him personally, its more than just words. They are words from a close Friend who knows and understands, giving the words with such wisdom at the right timing.
my heart comforted....

At the worship time, somehow, my "legs" just moved my body all the way to the front.
yes, right at the front, where i see no one else in front. ( except the worship team) :P
its only me and Him.
such "closeness".
the Presence of Him just gently came in as i open my heart to Him.
to want to hear His voice and obey Him.
The songs were new, but somehow, i could follow the lyrics.
its not about the familarity of me on the songs, but the move of Him in my heart that comes from mediating on the meaning of the lyrics.
at almost the last song, i could not "hold it" anymore.
i wanted so much to just "let go" and kneel before Him.
Becoz He is who He is.
And the last song came in....
" ....we all bow down....."
He knows, He hears, i did not concern whether i would be the odd one out if i had knelt down.
i bowed, and knelt, not just outwardly but in my heart too.
i whisper to Him: i am broken, i humbled myself. apart from You, i can do nothing. I want to do great things, but only if You say "yes".

There came two word of encouragement:
1) Psa 147:10-11
The strength of a horse does not impress Him, how puny in His sight is the strength of a man.Rather, the Lord's delight is in those who honor Him, those who put their hope in His unfailing love."
It hit right through within me.
2) A broken and contrite heart He would not despise.
Again, He is who He is, He heard me, tho i was among so many people in the service.

Ps Ben. wore a new shirt today. :)
He said was a brithday present from his coleagues.

the message: A commitment to a life with a vision.

* We can have many passions in life, but we can only have 1 passion of life.
*what is my heart set on?
* expect great things from Him, and attempt great things for Him.
* He is not asking us to go into tmrw and make tmrw right, but to trust in Him as we go into tmrw.
*chirstians are not ladder-climbers but cross-carriers.
*Live a life that matters.

touched.
becoz He is who He is.
everything just hit and strike through.
casting away every worry, and doubts.
It was exchanged with hope and love.

It is important to have a life, and not just living.

There's not much time left.
oh, ever let it be that i will constantly be aware that time is running short.
it matters, what i do with my seconds and minutes.
but i need Him to guide.

a song that came to my mind recently:
Its a small small world
..............only one life and soon it'll past,
only what's done for Christ will last......................

Becoz He is who He is,
i will contd to walk close to Him.
By His grace.
Amen.

OnE LiFe ...

Alrite...this gonna be my shortest blog.

"Dreams what you want to dream,
Go where you want to go,
Be what you want to be,
Because you only have one life,
and one chance to do all things you want to do"

(quoted)

to be contd...
Got to get myself ready to meet my God liao...haha.:)