When we try ...

What does it mean when someone says "i try"...

i will do it no matter how much i dont mean it.
i had enough, but because my mind still says to do the right thing, so i try.
there is nothing else i can do except just to try. (harder)

"ta han"?? maybe...

I try, because there is a good reason to contd on.
i try as i can see the rainbow after the rain.
i try this one more time, because i believe there is Truth.

Jia you?? maybe...

i personally think the comfort thing in the midst of trying...is to have SOMEONE beside you, to give you tt little nudge, tt little support behind, tt few words of encouragement, or even just a prayer...
What's more valuable is JESUS walking right there alongside, when we try.

May He gives grace to all who are willing to try. ( Not alone, but together with the Lord)

At the foot of the Cross

At the foot of the Cross (by Marcia, Unknown)

Fearing the battle was overAnd I'd already lost the war,I was tired of trying and failing.I just couldn't fight anymore.

So, dragging my battle-scarred body,I crawled to the foot of the cross.And I sobbed. 'Oh please, Father forgive me. But I tried...I tried.. and still lost.'

Then the air grew silent around me.I heard his voice just as clear as the dawn:'Oh, My child, though you are tired and weary,You can't stop, you have to go on.'

At the foot of the Cross , where I met Him,At the foot of the Cross, where He died,I felt love, as I knelt in His presence .I felt hope, as I looked in His eyes.

Then He gathered me lovingly to Him,As around us God's light clearly shone.And together we walked though my lifetimeTo heal every wound I had known.

I found bits of my dreams, long forgotten ,And pieces of my life on the floor.But I watched as He tenderly blessed them,And my life was worth living once more.

I knew then why I had been losing.I knew why I had not grown.At the foot of the Cross came the answer:I'd been fighting the battle alone .

At the foot of the Cross, where I met Him,At the foot of the Cross, where He died,Then I knew I could face any challengeTogether--just my Lord and I.

Old friend

this old fren came to mind...with the previous entry.(its a blessing to be in GOD's people)

hm...tday, over a conversation with him. Glad he can be my mirror, always reflect what are the dark spots in my life. i think we are more like very good friends who really speak directly, without fear tt the other person will misunderstand....:P Even if, we will surely let the other person know. haha. sometimes, i give black face, say negative words...sometimes i wonder, how he "tahan" me...thank GOD, he is "well-trained" by YOU.

11 th Nov 2007

It is a blessing to be in GOD's people.

what it means to grow in love, in truth, sharpen each other?

it takes heartache...but tt also means the heart is in tt relationship. Thank GOD.

with the more and more "different" people coming into the church? are we ready to receive them? what am i supposed to do?

today, an old blind uncle just sat 2seats away from me. accompanying him are two ladies, an indian, another chinese. They are pre-believers, their first time.

to me, first instance i saw them...a bit of fear. coz of the few times of encounter already, of the reality of what i heard about other ocassions. but i still want to ask: what shall i say? what do YOU want me to do? tho nothing, but i enjoy the process of seeking....for in all of our life, we need to seek YOU always....

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it was a hard decision. as humanly speaking, perhaps it were the "me" some time back, i would have chosen otherwise. BUT today, i ask for an answer. coz i really do not know what decision to make and i know Your way will be the best.

to stay with CG for lunch, esp this week there is no leadership meeting, where i can catch up with some of CG pple. OR to go with poy to meet up this fren, CP. ???

i started asking since in the morning ... the answer came so so direct through the video, where Pastor spoke. GO WHERE THEY ARE, and not asking them to come. i pray...

first time, i stand in the viewing gallery. the coffin goes in. even for my dad's, all of my family members were so blur, that we didnt get to see. perhaps it was meant to be. Coz we may not be able to take it. BUT this time, i hold my water in my eyes. As i hear the cries of this fren. tho i know him through poy, only a couple of times, but the face is imprinted. a burden builds up. Lord, really pray for CP that YOU will meet him in his heart. Let all the words of comfort he hears over this christian wake light up his spirit. LORD, somehow, i know he will be a great man in YOUR kingdom. He will make such an impact. GOD, protect him, give him grace to know YOU. now tt his father is gone to be with YOU, let his heart see the FAtherly Figure that ONLY YOU can fill. i pray and commit him into YOUR hands! IJN, amen!!

(Lord, pray that me and poy will be faithful to pray for CP)