Xiao Di Special Day!

Praise to unto the Lord, Jesus Christ!
today, its a joyful day!
xiao di took that step of faith to recieve Christ into his life!
:) ;) :) ;)

many things to be said.

but before sharing all those,
tis post is for you Xiao di.
To XD. Da Ge. Fr XM
"Be strong and courageus, Do not be terrified, do not be afraid. For the Lord your God is with you wherever u go." Joshua 1:9
Praying together with you.
Thank you for the trust in sharing.
He has given you faith to believe, even tho u havnt see, indeed you will be blessed!
"putted" your trust in Jesus, and He will show you how.


Father, its a beautiful day.
many many things.
Thank You!

little blessing on this special day:
1) finally managed to find a book for a friend which i have been seraching for 1mth! cant imagine, cant find in lifebookshop twice, Hope Resource and tecman etc...only "meant" to find today that it makes the day beautiful.
2) saw my kid, kaisheng at Sengkang interchange while on my way back. finally in my heart, i embraced my kids to"my life", coz if it had been previous times, i would not have purposely go up to them to say hi. which i did purposely dont do that when i saw my kid once last time. its make the day beautiful.
3) recd a card, which in that sense i asked for it, from a good friend whose changed life gave me such great encouragement. that yes, to labor is hard, but its fruits are even more blessed to have!
4) got to know how amazing God also touched a first time visitor, TT ( thai) and melted her heart with Your Love, that she recd Christ ! amazing.

tears.
its been Yi4 Nian2 Duo1 Le4!

Why/Joyce/Alan

Joyce and Alan's BD.
Kim got a surprise party for Joyce,
cooked mi fen, curry chicken, popiah etc...yum yum.
can see joyce is very touched.
a interesting gal.
hope to get to know her more.
was late, became another "surprise" for her...haha. :P
good time with Kim, sandy, Shawn, Joyce at Kim's place.

then got a sms from BK, she also preparing surprise BD party for alan...
hee.
went to his blk late, missed a bus stop, walked a deserted road.
it was a "terrible feeling" walking alone along that road.
saw them standing at the balcony, so near yet so far.
the vulnerability, or so i thought i was "strong".
went teh at usu Jalan Kayu, with GR, Alan, Poy, Ernie.
it was interesting to know Ernie.
a friend, whom somehow reminded me of someone i used to know, but now i cant rem exactly who. :P

why am i so blur!? hai. not once, but so many times. not affecting just myself, sometimes, unto others. :( it hurts, because it affects others.

got this song fr Vivian.
it was a song, sounded i heard it before...
anyway, it was a nice song.

Artist: Nicole Nordeman
Song: Why

We rode into town the other day
Just me and my daddyHe said I'd finally reached that age
And I could ride next to him on a horse
That of course was not quite as wide
We heard a crowd of people shouting
And so we stopped to find out why
And there was that man that my dad said he loved
But today there was fear in his eyes
So I said daddy why are they screaming
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is he dressed in that bright purple robe?
I'll bet that crown hurts him more then he shows
Daddy please can't you do something?
He looks as though he's gonna cry
You said he was stronger then all of those guys
Daddy please tell me why?
Why does everyone want him to die?

Later that day the sky grew cloudy
And daddy said I should go inside
Somehow he knew things would get stormy
Boy was he right
But I could not keep from wondering
If there was something he had to hide
So after he left I had to find out
I was not afraid of getting lost
So I followed the crowds
To a hill where I knew men had been killed
And I heard a voice come from the cross

And it said father why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for my clothes?
This crown of thorns hurts me more then it shows
Father please can't you do something?
I know that you must hear my cries
I thought I could handle a cross of this size
Father remind me why?
Why does everyone want me to die?
When will I understand why?
My precious sonI hear them screaming
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming
But soon I will clothe you in robes of my own
Jesus this hurts me much more then you know
But this dark hourI must do nothing
Though I've heard your unbearable cries
The power in your blood
Destroys all of the lies
Soon you'll see past their unmerciful lies
Look there below
See the child
Trembling by her father's side
Now I can tell you why
She is why you must die
-end-


Jesus, when You wore that crown of thorns, i wonder, how can You bear that, not to even mention the nails pierced into Your hands.
i rem SM mentioned before in CG, stg he shared in a small group: "sometimes, why not i be wronged?..."
it was enriching thought, that even Jesus, He was "wronged" as "blaspheming" to be called the "son of God" when He truly is the Messiah.

Jesus, how did You ever bear that?
i wonder...
and it make my heart tear for You.
precious lover of my soul
over years, i may have taken for granted
for all that You have done for me.
many times, i have disappointed You
and i always say: i will not do it again.
but yet...my heart and my strength
they always fail
By Your grace.
You gave me second chance.
last sunday, even before Ps Ben shared the word,
i heard You saying,
My gal, like I told the criminal on that day I was hanged there up on the cross, I say the same to you, : "I tell you the truth, today you will be with me in paradise" ( refer Luke 23:42-43)
(during the praise and worship time)
Jesus, i knew why You had to die.
You gave me this second chance.
to take my sins upon Your shoulders,
and to bring me to Father's lap once again,
like a little child,
yearning for that love.

Jesus.

somehow while i was saving the song "Why" into my song folder,
i saw another song.
this touched me too.
Collin Raye - Love me.
"If you get there before i do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long i'll be...."
these words has some special meaning to me.

Jesus.
I need You to be with me.
That i will walk Your way.
in every step i take.
in every word i say.

Jesus,
remember me.
(Luke 23:42)

Chair

Tues Evening
Reached Nexus late again...( its going to be another 2mths)
adv to be in morning session.
Sch ends early.

in that small little Asia room.
came in with much expectation yet with a very tired body.
singing with songs "Exalted" and "Jesus we enthrone You"

Exalted
You will ever be exalted
You are worthy of all honor and praise....

its good to be dwelling in His presence, regain strength from Him.

Vision
a book, with the pen put inside the pages.
yet the ribbon ( which signifies the actual life that has past) was a lot more pages after the point the pen was.

slow down and start giving thanks for all He has done.

Be joyful always, pray continually, and giving thanks in all circumstances in our Lord Jesus Christ.

went back to Nexus.
saw the chairs.
how to, i asked?
no faces, nothing.
but anyway, i shall do it.

allocated everyone to sections of Nexus.
i stood near the centre seats, i looked up at my team members,
it was amazing.
i didnt see a empty seat
it was ''well-covered"

so we started.
i dont know how, but the Holy Spirit shall guard us.
one by one.
Row D to F.
wonder who will sit there?
where will he sit?

it increased our faith.
our burden for people
it was such good time
with our Lord

Lord, pour out Your blessings this easter.
that many will come to know You.
amen.

Bridges

taught a lesson to my kids about bridges, how workers use different materials to bridges...
Shi Qiao, Tie Qiao, Mu Qiao etc...

today's run was good.
skipped for a week.
resume back, thinking if i can spare off a weekday for a nite run instead, when i start my hope sem course, which is soon...e. :P

walked to rachel's house this mrng before i start my usual route, so that also means a new route today.
yea, was refreshing tho, to be on the other side of the road, of the familiar route.
looking at surroundings which is different from the many times.

as i pick up slowly, knowing what a week difference might bring to me, not a regular runner.
somehow, i was doing quite well, the steps were as well-paced as before, it was not much of a difficult,then it dawned upon me, it has become a habit, rather i was doing it for some weeks now, so it would not be too much a stance.
to other things: as long as i discipline myself in what i want to do, even if at times, i had to "stop" for a while for certain reasons, it will not be difficult coz it is "part of" me already.
the "pyschological" mind or rather the mind should stop telling myself "i cant".
because i can when i believe. victory does not go to the stronger hand but the one with a stronger mind.
i can because He can.

today's run was special.
not just i took a different starting point, a different route, but also the first time i went without a watch.
no time limits. i didnt have to time myself as i used to.
i told myself i run to the time He gives.
i paced accordingly to His.
i prayed along the way.

amazingly, i reached Punngol park without much panting....to me, i m surprised.
on return trip, i prayed for people along the way, this somehow, got me a bit worried.
felt my legs "suddenly" lose strength as if each step i took is taking more strength from my legs than needed.
contd on, i mean i told myself: i have to reach home somehow mah. ( the place was along serangoon rd, so a bit deserted too)
but i was still praying, i realised something as i go along.
as i start each name i prayed, to certain ones, my steps "suddenly" gets heavier, as if my steps were in pace with the person's life.
i told myself: if it means to run together with this person at this difficult time ( at the moment when my legs gets heavier) i will persevere, somehow i managed to run a bit more constant rather than draggy.
then amazing, as i finish praying for the person, i realised i already got back my normal pace.
it was sense of victory!
then again as i start another , the same...
yet, for some, i felt the urge to run faster than my normal pace...
it was a cool experience to me....
praying is so interesting. even as i run, the praying "pace" coordinates with my running pace.
hee. :)

nearing home, prob another 1km, nearing XD's place, i wanted to stop at the traffic light ahead which is a usual route for me, but then i decided to take another route, to contd to run, then ahead there's a overhead bridge which i can still get across to get back home. so that i wont need to stop.
with already aching legs, i climb up the many many steps from the bridge.....
down i go...contd on, without having to stop.
it came to me, in life, sometimes, i dont have to stop ( at the traffic light) at what i perceived the route to reach destination( home). i can contd on without stopping, ahead there's will be another route to lead me back to destination, even tho sometimes the bridge may cause me to backtrack a bit, but tt's ok, it matters that i do not stop.
the bridge serves its purpose, to bring people from one place to another.
what's my bridge to that destination?

Father, may our eyes of our hearts be enlightened to see Your revelation of Your purpose in our lives, let not our own minds, and knowldge to say that we think the best , let not our hearts be obsitnate towards what You would tell us. many times, our hearts convinced ourselves into what is the best for us, but yet we have block out what You would really want us to do. Father pray for Your grace and mercy to bring us back to Your heart, refreshed us with a tender heart and new spirit to obey not according to our convinced minds, but according to Your thoughts and ways. Give us the courage to admit we are proud on our own, to surredner to You in exchange for Your peace of Christ that will rule in our hearts. dear Father, be with us in every step, pace us in Your race, let our eyes not be tempted with the current goals, but with spritual eyes to see the vision and finishing line. the day You bring us back, the day Jesus' glory be worshipped on high, the day we are received back to enjoy Your presence forever. Thank You, for You are indeed faithful to us! in Jesus name, Amen.