Praise and worship Nitez

Words of Him.
Haggai 2
"the future glory of this Temple will be greater than its past glory, says the Lord Almighty. And this place i will bring peace."

this is Your promise, for i asked for a confirmation.
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Isa 55
"...the rain and snow come down from the heavens and stay on the ground to water the earth....it will acomplish all i want i tto, and it will prosper everywhere i send it..."

yes, i remember this same word that has been keep ringing in my mind for this past days.....
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James 1:22
"and remember, it is message to obey, not just to listen to....."

just days ago, the picture of the mirror impress on my heart, now i understand why.
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Eph 6
The FULL armor of God.
yes, the same msg SQ shared with me.
it is very important to go on in the "battle" putting on the full armor of God!
tested and tried.
at heart and mind during these short days....
Remember and inscribe HIs words at heart.
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Psa 73
Isnt this the same msg that impress on me for the intercessory meeting?
so it was it.
"...my health may fall, and my spirit may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heart, He is mine forever...."
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Psa 27:1
Isnt ths the same msg that came to me during CG worship time this thurs?
yes, it is.
"...the Lord protects me from danger-- so why should i tremble?"
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sometimes, wonder the Word that comes.
it repeats.
Needed it to sunk deep within, i hope too.
words that will be fulfilled in time to come.

HOw it all pieced itself together.
asked for two things today before i prepare for this PnW nitez.
didnt get one as i expected it to be.
but nevertheless, You have showed me in another way.
thats more than enough.

Faith is certain of what i hope for.
Out of "sudden", PS's life came to my mind.
her life, her testimony.
it brought to me the focus of our lives.
it hard to give up sometimes, to give what our heart so desires.
To the Lord.
Yet, He is Lord, the centre of all.
so be wise, use life on earth fully.
the MISSION, the thing that keeps its flame within
even when i am unfaithful
He is faithful!

was amazed at God's faithfulness.
about His answering prayers.
Thank You! God.
saw it in CG people's lives.amazed at how u worked through in their lives!
will keep on interceding for them.
everyone of them.
God, use me to bless them.
That we will hold on to the truth in love, becoming more and more in every way like Christ, who is the head of his body, NG5B2. Under His direction, NG5B2 is fitted together perfectly. As (name) does it own special work, ( name) help others to grow, so that NG5B2 is healthy and growing and full of love.
amen.

Yours, not mine

21st Jul
My 4th visit to Alexandra Hospital.
my aunt still there.
remember before i left home, was told to "leave these affairs" aside, not to bother so much for it would now be others' resonsibilities.
Yet i know Your timing.
that i am still free to do such "errands" for my aunt, to settle all the admission and etc.
And did it for my dad, for i know he would want my aunt to be well taken care of.

But what amazes me is even as she portrays to be so called " intellectually disabled", she had own special way of expressing herself.
sneaked "her" out of the ward to bring her out for a walk.
ops, the nurse spoted us, she quickly hide away from me, leaving me with the responsibility. hm.
went to cheers, she "demanded" lots of food stuff....well, she sure knows her "ability" now to ask for things....

remember the 2nd visit at hospital, when she's given drips etc...tried using drawings and hand signals to share with her about God's love for her....
signalled her about God, and prayer...
she shaked her head. Was it she knows and she does not want to believe? or she does not understand at all?
God, u know her, let her experience Your love. in Your way which i still do not know how.
How blessed are those who can hear about Your love....

Went to a brother-in-Christ's wake.
do not know him, only hear about him.
it reminds me of my dad.
reminds me of the support of the fellow church and friends.
remembered 20th Jul was the ritual thingy that family went through for my dad.
Lord, deep within, i had to struggle through the pressures of my aunts who are around.
the monk who even openly opposed to my firm stand.
yet i remembered You are my strong tower, the support of my life.
Thank You, for the strength i had to go through it.

Lord, death is what Jesus Himself came for
to Give the new life.
yes, though the thought of hope that the dead are with You.
its always this time on earth
when the reality of the existence of the person is no longer there
greatly missed.
Lord, let the time be gone fast enough that we will not miss Your touch and comfort.
how long will it be?
yet to this, i give thanks.

22nd Jul ( Fri)
Morning went to Punngol Pri school
met up with Mdm Chung, Jingyi, annie
went for observation classes.
wow, its "crazy"
not at all what i expected it to be.
a lot of surprises
and a lot of deep thoughts evolved.

what are the children thinking now?
how do they feel?
this class where they just lost a classmate.
they learnt about the death of their friend
what could go through their mind?
did it affected them in any way?
now they seemed to change their behavior, accordingly to the teacher.
Lord, use me.
i do not know how, but You will lead.
for i will cling on to the words You gave before this
that its in Your plan
so, learn, humble, hopeful and be firm!

what a challenging year ahead!
yet i give thanks.

Yet i give thanks.
Lord, keep my heart pure and single-hearted in serving You.
Entangling thoughts at heart, and i know i had to go through
Let it be
so that i can grow
Yours ( ways), not mine.

When i grow OLD.....

Translated from a email ( in mandarin) i recd.
appreciated it in the language...:)

when i grow OLD
When i grow old, no longer the one i used to be
please understand me, i ask for your patience

When i spill over the vegetable soup on my shirt
When i forgot how to tie my shoe laces
please remember how i used to help u, holding your small hands to drink of the soup, to tie your shoe laces.

When i keep repeating the words which u never want to hear again,
please let me finish what i want to say
Remember when u are younger, i had to repeat those bedtime stories over and over again
until i see you slipping into your sweet dreams

When i need you to bathe me
please do not groan
do you remember the scenes when i had to keep trying to coax you to bathe when u are younger?

When i stumbled over the gadgets of the new technology
please do not laugh at me
remember how i was patient with you in answering you every "whys" questions?

When my feeble limbs are too weak to move,
please stretch out your strong and sturdy arms to give me that support
just like how i supported you when you are attempting your first steps.

When i missed the focus of our conversation, please give me more time to recall
to me, its not about the topics we are conversing
what matters to me is that as long as you are beside me to listen to me

As you watch me aging, please do not be sad
Understand me, support me
Just like how you learned from me about living a life

As i had guided you how to begin your life
please be with me to finish my last journey of life
bless me with your love and patience
i will smile with much gratitude
this smile hides my unconditional love for you.

ChAnGe.cHaNgE.

wanted to title this as Breakthrough....then realised one of my earliest post was also breakthrough....

How perfect is His timing to remind me again of what i have earlier said about having breakthroughs in my life for this whole year!
indeed, more than half way down the year and there are so many to count, too many to count.:)

Decided to CHANGE.
things i wrote here for the past few days.
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"Courage is not the absence of FAith, but to go forth despite fears."
the difference is not about the amount of faith, but to go through it with FAITH!

Sun Sermon:
1) Know the kind of people we are
2) Know the purpose of our life
3) Know what has happened to us

Dare to Imagine-Breakthough
17th Jul 2005 the launch of breakthough.

"And the H.S helps us in our distress. For we dont even know what we shoudl pray or, nor how we should pray. But theH.S. prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words. And the Father who knows all hearts knows what the Spirit is saying, for the Spirit pleads for us believers in harmony with God's own will. And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to His purpose for them. For God knew his people in advance, and He chose them to become like his Son, so that His Son would be firstborn, with many sisters and brothers. And having choosing them, He called them to come to Him. And he gave them right standing with himself and He promised the His GLORY" Romans 8:26-30

Let His GLORY be seen by all men!
Let His GLORY into our lives, everybeing.
Praise Him and ever!

What a wonderful magnificent God!

pray for revival in me, and the people in the CG.
God, we can because You can.
( Dennis / Kim / Rachel / Sandy / Poy/ Shiming / Jiawei / June/ Lee/ Peilin / Mingzhu / Lingling / Yicheng / Lawrence / Lyndi / Jane / Meijuan / Guoliang)
CHANGE!

give thanks.

If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it
( from an email just received before this post...how perfect timing of His encouragement)

how very tricky the opposition comes
at the weakest moment
its all in the mind

a slightest twist
can be for or against

it takes His grace
to decide to go forth

not easy
i would say
yet not by power nor by might
BUT by the Spirit
He leads

THANK YOU
for the timely prayer sms late at night
the timing thru the coversation over msn
to realise yet one thing
You have Your perfect timing

i will wait then
i will be "stubborn" abt it then
tho no matter how i would rather not to
tho no matter how i would have choose to go the other way

may Your grace be with me
may i experience Your love
to know the truth
to hang on there
cling on and stay stubborn abt it!

Quoted:
Let all of us be stubborn in God.
Stubborn in seeking for Him.
Stubborn in believing in Him
and stubborn in praying with Him.

Be joyful always
pray continually
giving thanks in all circumstances!!

:)

Song of Worship with God alone

Friend and King

My eyes are on You Lord
YOu guide me with Your hand
This road i take is led by You
i will walk Your ways

in my days of trouble Lord
i can depend on You
i am hidden in Your Presence now
Established by Your grace

I am Yours
Foever i will sing
Faithful is my friend and King

END

listening to this song, reminds me of this very special person in my life
no one can ever take his place
only the last few years that i spent with him that i really felt meaningful
how short the time i had with him.
his words, his actions, his very being
times of trouble, of anxiety, of some happy moments

God was my faithful friend and King
i can depend on Him
i am hidden in His presence

God continue to lead me in Your way.
Guide me by Your hand
living in every moment with You.

Ask, and His Word!

The Thought
one year later is uncertain.
it came on that sun.
excitement and looking forward.
one dream and a thought came.

as recalling helps to see His Hands on this plan,
looking back what perfect timing in all these things that has happen.
and the discover: it seems to be pointing to that thought and dream.
Mentioned this only to two persons.
the thought.
would be be mine or His?
still searching.
Asking and His Word.
Let it be His not mine
dream and what He wants to do.

Then realised.
one thing
Focus on the search to know Him better
not on the confirmation of the result
cause its knowing Him is more important
than to get what is the outcome.

well, at ease.
at the end, it may turn out just a thought
my thought
but i would have gained so much more to search for His word
to hear to meet to experience
Him!

Message version of His Word:
"Anyone who intends to come with Me has to let Me lead. You are not in the driver's seat--I Am. Dont run from suffering;embrace it! Follow Me and i'll show you how. Self-help is no help at all. Self-sacrifice is the way, my way, to finding yourself, your true self. What good would it be to have everything u want and lose you, the real you?" ( Luke 9:23-25)

here's another one...
" then another said, " i am ready to follow you, Master, but first excuse me while i get things straightened out at home."
Jesus said," No procrastination. No backward looks. you cant put God's kingdom off till tomorrow. Seize the day." ( Luke 9:61-62)

If its His dream and He gave that Thought,
it will not vanish.
so waiting upon and growing to be sensitive to His direction.
now,
just take a step at one time, with faith and faithfully.

i like the movie!

Initial D.
hm, does not sound appealing to me, a person who does not drive nor have any interest in Jay Chou...:P

but it was a good movie.
"it is important to find a place of yours..." (paraphrased) said by the gal in the movie
( poy gave us all the same msg about the place for us in KOG. hee, rachel, xiaodi and me were still travelling together. recd the same msg. a naughty thought came. Let's all gave him back the same msg...synchronized message. haha. tt's was FUN!! childlikeness in every one's heart...:P )

besides the scenic views that attracted me a lot,
it was about the relationships i see in this show.

one
the sleepy father and the son ( Jay)
yes, the father has his BIG obvious weakness, sleepy and seemingly care less of anything in what's happening around
yet, through the unsaid
the love for the son is still there
he even counted the timing of the son's delivery time
he saw his son's disappointment in the "spoilt" AE86
and took the effort to get it repaired
even better this time
he took his son to teach him a lesson
to acheive the best performance from the engine the car can go
only after the son took on a failed and unsatisfied ride
what a love for his son!

"You fathers, if your children ask for a fish, do you give them a snake instead? or if they ask for an egg, do you give them a scorpion? of course not! if you sinful people know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will Your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask Him." Luke 11:11-13 (NLT)

two
the friendship of the son (Jay) and the "imposed god of racing car of Mt Akina"-son's friend
grewing up years together
the son seemingly always bullied and looked down by his friend
yet, through the unsaid
the son wanted to share his good news to only his friend and his galfriend
the scene where they sat on the car front of the petrol kiosk
the friend supported him as he raced
jumped in exhilatration when he won!
the good joy a pair of buddies shared together.

"two people can accomplish more than twice as much as one, they get a better return for their labor. if one person fails, the other can reach out and help. but the people who are alone when they fall are in real trouble. .." Ecc 4:9 (NLT)

three
the relationship of the son and his galfriend
at the end, the gal did not have the chance to explain herself
though at that time, she has made a decision
to leave the "unseen" uncle and wanting to go back to the son
the son saw and perceived from there
left and everything left unclarifed

the eyes of the gal showed guilt and shame, and repentance?

can we always be "calm" to see situations beyond just human eyes?
waiting for a proper time for truth to be revealed?

No eye has seen no ear has heard the good that the Lord has prepared for those
who wait on Him, to hear His voice,
You are the potter and i am the clay
(song)

hee...just my personal thoughts triggered after the movie....:P

His touch on this day

I gave these words:
"Even when i walk
through the dark valley of death
i will not be afraid
for you are close beside me
YOUR ROD AND YOUR STAFF
protect and comfort me" (psa 23:4)

Give ME your hands
Open your palms
I put the rod and the staff on your hands
Take them!

taking them upon my hands
they are somehow heavy to hold for long
very tempted to let go
yet, i clutched them hard
to tell Him: Yes, i will.

ROD: to be the kind of leader You want me to be
STAFF: to be there for the people where You want me to be

right into my heart
indeed You know my every care and thought
- (during prayer in sun svc today) -

let go.
the many "me-s" inside
divine exchange
still sometimes, felt the hurts and unwillingness
i look upon the fruits of obedience
Help me O God.
i cant and i need You
thank You for being here
You are precious lover of all.

to admit i cant is the greatest gift
i recd the biggest in return
" i can do all things through Him who gives me stregth"
nothing is impossible for Him
All glory to Him!

NISSI-banner

What is this? NISSI?

Exo 17:15 Moses built an altar ther and called it " the Lord is my banner"

the banner of the Lord.

a troop of mighty warriors.
led in front by a leader.
small and pettie leader
yet the banner holds up.
every one looks up,not to the leader
but to the banner

one that summons direction
one that signifies authority
one that says: " deny yourselves, take up the cross, and follow Me"
one that unites all diversities

a banner that flies across the land
a celebration of praise
a VICTORY in faith!
will be there, but not yet.

then, along the journey forward
some got injured
some heavily wounded
some lost the energy
left behind the troop

the banner continues on high
be strong and be firm
though the heart says otherwise
the hand grows weak

BUT its not about the leader
the Banner is all
that everyone is looking for,
hoping for.

a decision to make
In Him, for all
or follow the faint heart
yes, made a decision
to go all the way

preparing for further heart aches
ready for more injuries
yet, the troop goes on
one can defeat a thousand
two can defeat ten thousand

forward looking
not look back
for the battle belongs not the leader
it belongs to the Lord!

yet it will take time
for the wounded to heal
the weak to become strong again
i have not reach the furthest, to the best extent
dont give up!

Because
He is Almighty ONe
He is great and awesome God
There is none like you
Hallelujah!

final
a relevation from Him
The Lord is my banner!!